I'm going to use this blog for whatever I want. Its Mine. And no one reads it anyways so I'm going to vent here and hopefully this will help me through my troubled times.
Situation: separation from the army. Well its finally time. I've been talking shit and praying for this moment. Well here it is. Finally getting this MEB. I WILL be out in late october/ early November. I am not doing what most people do though. Most people go back home or go where they know someone. Nope. I'm moving to Austin TX. never been there, buy I've heard great things and I don't feel like going back to sj. I have no debt, and the GI Bill Benefits, so why not explore. I want to experience new things. Who wouldnt you want to live near the Beach? I know I do, but I need to explore new options and places.
So now that this process is starting I am starting to get my anxiety attacks and all that fun stuff. You know the bitch-ass-ness in you telling you to quit, off yourself, go back home. Something like that. But Im not sure what scares me more, trying and failing, or never trying. Now I'm not a huge daredevil or anything special like that but I have goals that I think are attainable. They have been done by other men. So I don't see any reason why I can't succeed. I got enough money to live income free for at least 8 months. Not that I will but just saying.
The goals I have In life are not that krazy. Gain financial freedom before 35. That means - I work for myself if I choose to work for someone else that will be another story. However, I want to earn more than enough steadily that I do not have to answer to anyone or fear not receiving income from a company. I will achieve this through real estate investing. It seems like a great way to gain financial freedom.
I will squat 700. Bench 600 and dead lift 700. Then I will increase the goals.
I have many more but I think this will be plenty to focus on these while going to school.
From now on when I get scared I am going to tell myself that I can be a success. When I was in Korea working 8am to 8pm then coming home lifting for 1-2 hours and then doing 2 hours of school. And maintained a 4.0 while taking two classes. Everyone was sleeping and partying. I would spend 8 hours in the library on my weekends after working those scheduals, then reward myself with going out for maybe a movie. I enjoyed that struggle and the rewards and was proud of myself. If I can do that. I can easily succeed In the outside world.
I think re-telling myself this will help me through my anxiety and fear of the unknown.
also not trying to accomplish everything in a day and slowly knocking away at it seems to help a lot.
Situation: separation from the army. Well its finally time. I've been talking shit and praying for this moment. Well here it is. Finally getting this MEB. I WILL be out in late october/ early November. I am not doing what most people do though. Most people go back home or go where they know someone. Nope. I'm moving to Austin TX. never been there, buy I've heard great things and I don't feel like going back to sj. I have no debt, and the GI Bill Benefits, so why not explore. I want to experience new things. Who wouldnt you want to live near the Beach? I know I do, but I need to explore new options and places.
So now that this process is starting I am starting to get my anxiety attacks and all that fun stuff. You know the bitch-ass-ness in you telling you to quit, off yourself, go back home. Something like that. But Im not sure what scares me more, trying and failing, or never trying. Now I'm not a huge daredevil or anything special like that but I have goals that I think are attainable. They have been done by other men. So I don't see any reason why I can't succeed. I got enough money to live income free for at least 8 months. Not that I will but just saying.
The goals I have In life are not that krazy. Gain financial freedom before 35. That means - I work for myself if I choose to work for someone else that will be another story. However, I want to earn more than enough steadily that I do not have to answer to anyone or fear not receiving income from a company. I will achieve this through real estate investing. It seems like a great way to gain financial freedom.
I will squat 700. Bench 600 and dead lift 700. Then I will increase the goals.
I have many more but I think this will be plenty to focus on these while going to school.
From now on when I get scared I am going to tell myself that I can be a success. When I was in Korea working 8am to 8pm then coming home lifting for 1-2 hours and then doing 2 hours of school. And maintained a 4.0 while taking two classes. Everyone was sleeping and partying. I would spend 8 hours in the library on my weekends after working those scheduals, then reward myself with going out for maybe a movie. I enjoyed that struggle and the rewards and was proud of myself. If I can do that. I can easily succeed In the outside world.
I think re-telling myself this will help me through my anxiety and fear of the unknown.
also not trying to accomplish everything in a day and slowly knocking away at it seems to help a lot.
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